a word that resonates around me...

catalyst (plural catalysts)

1. (chemistry)
A substance which increases
the rate of a chemical reaction
without being consumed in the process.

2. (automotive)
A catalytic converter.

3. Someone or something
that helps or encourages
progress or change.

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when i began writing
and even now,
dot dot dot
the three dots
have had
their share in me

it is about not putting a full stop
it is about going on with it
it is about the dynamic nature of life

so here is
dot dot dot

dot
dot
dot

in transit...

i was
i will be

my 'am' is in transit
constantly
continuously
commonly
considerably
comprehensively
communicative-ly

my am is 'is not'
my identity looks at
i was
or
i will be
...

'am' between two pulls
'am' locked in stretched

where am i?
when am i?

am sleepy at australia time
am on indian standard time...
so it is
hazy...
heavy...
high...

in transit...

being...

as we spoke,
i said,
'i wonder what is larger
than life for me...?'

an aroma of coffee
a sigh of pause
a memory of love
a distant pair of eyes
an emotion of pride
an emotion of being with
an emotion of being for
an emotion when you are
an emotion when you are not
a song
a poem
a word
a touch
an evening
a human
you...

he had a sip going through him,
he looked deep in the coffee mug,
he raised his eyes,
looked,
at me
in me
through me
and said
'life itself is much greater...'

being is greater
being is 100%
no becoming
just being
in itself
and
it is beautiful
it is complete
it is dependent
it is independent
it is love
it is lack of love
it is you
it is me
it is your eyes
it is me looking at your eyes

it is ironical
it is paradoxical

it is the horizon
apparent closeness
the
ocean
and
the
sky
merging into each other...

life is such...
being is such...

nothing more...
nothing less...

'now' is eternal

it is today

there is an attraction,

there is a pull

but is it not a but natural phenomenon?

wish is a wish

expecting more is asking for more

it is never enough

it is never complete

it doesn’t get over

life is such…

I am happy

you are

we are…

kali badariya barse...

when it rains
and
when it doesn't rain

when life is
and
it isn't

when love is
and
when love is not

when you are
and
when you are not...

kali badariya barse...

Hello Goodbye

You say yes, I say no
You say stop and I say go, go, go
Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello

I say high, you say low
You say why, and I say I don't know
Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello

Why, why, why, why, why, why
Do you say good bye
Goodbye, bye, bye, bye, bye

Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye I say hello
Hello

Hela, heba helloa
Hela, heba helloa

-The Beatles

fairytale...

it is a fairytale...

it is one...
i want it to be a fairytale,
and thus
it is a fairytale...

my existence
is a fairytale,
i make it a fairytale,

would you be part, half-part of it?
you won't,
because
if you do then
it just might not be a fairytale...

you break my heart
every time i see you,
and that
is what makes it a fairytale...

fairytale
rarely ends...
it has an apparent end,
a deceiving end,
and that
is what makes a fairytale,
a fairytale...

every time
i express,
affection
adoration
attraction
emotion
passion
frustration
anxiety...
it comes from
a space of
being non-rational...
and that
is what makes it to be a fairytale
a fairytale...

anyway...